Enjoying the moment

I've never written a blog in almost 4 years now. I used to love writing so much everytime something great or something sad happens to me I always write about in my notebook (during classes) or at the back page of the last page of my textbook if I couldn't find anything to write on, or even at the back of test papers.. But since I graduated and started working, I just couldn't find the time and the energy to write. Everytime I pick up a pen and start writing, my hands would shake and my mind would go blank.. My handshaking can be blamed on lack of exercise. With the advent of computers, we don't really use pens and papers anymore. Even at work, its all in the computer.. So basically, I blame my lack of hand-writing exercise on technology. There are times that I would start writing personal blogs like this one but when I start typing, my mind would go blank and I find myself grasping for words so I would stop after a few lines, tell myself that I can go back on working on it again after putting my mind at ease but then forget all about it altogether. This blog is actually a test-blog for me.. I want to see how far I can go and how many words I can put together after 4 years of non-blogging.. Actually, it should be more than 4 years. It should be 10 years, but the reason why I say 4 years is because I was able to write 2 blogs at friendster in 2006, but that was that, and it was only written to release some emotional strain because of life changing decisions that I made at the time. Ever since, I have been looking for something inside to push me into writing again but I never found the inspiration. So how do you go back into writing? I mean, how can one bring back a passion that they have lost? Is that at all possible? Writing used to be an outlet for me, and I want that to come back.. I want to be able to express my thoughts and feelings again by just using my trusty pen.. or keyboard for that matter.. I don't know how to start again.. But I'm hoping that by doing blogs like this, eventually, God-willing, my passion for writing would come back.. Not only will it help me psychologically, but if I get lucky, it might help me financially as well.. hmmm... not impossible, right?